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It's not right away that you feel the pain. After the initial break, when you feel like a warm kitten dropped into ice cold water, you get into this state where you don't really feel anything anymore. Only after some time, when you get closer to balancing the past and the future again, you get this sort of nostalgia that's always there, in the room with you. Like a faded presence that won't leave your side, like a question that's been there for a long time, and even though it's answered, just doesn't want to go away.